昨晚，
我哭了....
在很累的情况下，
进入了睡眠....

Sorry

Well...
I know you sure don't like me say sorry to you again..
But now what can i say is really sorry...
I don't know i'm such an annoying people to you...
I don't know i brought so many troublesomes to you..
I don't know you feel so irritated with my attitude..
I don't know you are so sick of caring about me...
Yet, now i knew....

Just now i find you really got something to tell you...
Just i don't want to disturb you while you are doing your work..
Although you say never mind, but i really don't want to disturb you...
Why i say nothing and byebye??
Is because of what you said...
The way u answering me make me feel that i'm disturbing you..
Not because i purposely doing that..
You said, 'anything, faster say'
I feel that you are so impatient..
If you are me, what will you think??
Thats why i feel like im disturbing you...

You say i always don't want tell out my problems..
I forget whether i got explain this to you before or not..
Anyway, i'm not going to say again...
I know myself why i do this is enough already...
I know u guys sure will say 'if you didn't tell out your problems how can others help you leh' bla bla bla....
I know... I understand...
But sometime i don't even know what happened to me...
Don't even know how come i will have those feeling..
What the hell you wan't me to tell out then???

Sigh....
I'm not going to explain anything more...
Whatever you think its ok...
I really no mood to bother so much....
What i wan't to say is...
This is me! It is no easy to change all this...
Can you easily change yourself??
Your attitude... Your way of thinking....
Somemore, something that is right for you doesn't mean is right for me or even others...
Not everyone should think in exactly the way you thinking...
Not everyone should solve the problem as how you solve your problem...

Well, sorry for disturbing you for so long time...
Sorry for being so annoying to you....
Just leave me alone then...
You don't have the need to care about me also...
Anything happen to me, is my own business...
Being so depressed, so stressful, so down, so frustrated....
Or somehow, is my own business...
Is me padan muka ok...
Won't disturb you anymore...
Sorry....

啊！！！！！！！
此刻谁能够出现在我身旁？？
好需要一些安慰，陪伴，和鼓励...
很不开心啊~~
想过一些快快乐乐的日子...
我可以怎么做呢？？
心里一直有种好难受的感觉...
让我的情绪就一直低落...低落...
快疯掉了！！！

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你就一定要酱做吗？？
你不知道我很在意吗？？
讨厌你啊！！
快滚出我的世界吧！
真得很不想再理你了...
已经是第几次被这样对待了...
为什么那个人要是你？？
真的很想知道...
我，到底做错了什么......

想要發泄...

真的覺得很不開心...
覺得好沮喪啊！！！！！
唉...
心情好像掉到谷底了...
好低落...好低落...
感覺好多煩惱，好多不開心的事...
找不到可以讓自己開心的東西...
想得到的東西，就是得不到...
想做到的事，怪自己沒能力做到...
我所期待的，怎么都不會來？
我所希望的，怎么都不會發生？
怎么會這樣？
我該怎么辦呢？？
有時真的覺得很無助...
覺得自己真的好沒用哦...
好討厭那種無助的感覺！！
更討厭自己的無能！！
真的好討厭...好討厭...
想要一些安慰，一些關心，一些支持，一些鼓勵，一些陪伴...
覺得好空虛哦...
心里空蕩蕩的，好像少了些什么...

為什么我在乎的人都不會在乎我...
為什么總是得不到想要的關心...
為什么心情總是那么的糟...
為什么總是覺得無助...
為什么總是有那么多的為什么...

原以為我可以無所謂，原來我不能...
原以為我變堅強了，原來我還是會受傷...
原以為我可以一個人過日子，原來還是會覺得寂寞...
原以為自己學會了放手，原來還是會執著...

為什么我還要在乎你呢...
好想讓你離開我的世界...
不想再去在乎一些不在乎我的人...
好想對自己好一點...
可是，我可以怎么做呢？
不甘心放手，也不想放手...
結果把自己給困住了...

最近真的好忙，好多事要做...
好像一點空閑的時間都沒有...
每天都覺得好累...
長期的睡眠不足...
好久沒讓自己好好休息了...
生活的節奏快得讓我都快跟不上了...
覺得好辛苦...
不只是身體覺得疲憊，連心里也覺得疲憊...
有時常說自己好累，是真的身心都覺得疲憊...
有很多事要做，但就是提不起勁去做...
覺得好累，好累...
有時也會出現一些迷茫的時刻...
不知道自己想要的是什么...
不知道自己為了什么而做這些事...
可是，都沒時間仔細地去想想...
好想要有一些時間，讓自己好好休息...
什么都不去做，什么都不去想...
讓自己沉淀...

＊誰可以當男朋友，誰只能當普通朋友。＊

普通朋友：半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。
男/女朋友：半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男/女朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男/女朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男/女朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男/女朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男/女朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男/女朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男/女朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。


愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害

放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎


如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

Today my fren told me something very funny about maths..
Actually is very cacat and zhadao one... Haha!
Here it is....

Simultaneous equation:

study = no fail -->1
no study = fail -->2
1+2
study + no study = no fail + fail
study(1+no) = fail(no+1)
study = fail

Haha! So no need to study ady...

加油！！！

加油！加油！加油!!!

>.<

Today went to sg.wang with my friends..
Attend for a briefing about a hairdressing course...
I've decided to take the course...
Haha! So gatal la...
I'm very interested with it lo...
Hope i will have the chance to take the course luu..
*fingers crossed*
Too many people apply for it,
because it is a free course sponsored by the government...
And i'm quite worry that i will be very busy if i take the course..
Hmm... Maybe i won't be so lazy if i'm busy... Haha!

Today i spent lots too la..
I think spent around RM100..
Haiz... Lately really spent a lot arh!!
For so many many many things...
Sincerely, some are unnecessary one..
Just because i'm so gatal.. Haha!
Must control myself le la...

We had our meal at Kim Gary... Wakakaka!!~~
The baked cheese rice is sooooo nice... Yummy~ ^^
Because of this meal, i have to eat bread only for few days..
Haha! Because with the money spent for the meal,
normally i can have 3 to 4 meals..
Thats why i must eat bread only to save money jor..
If not feel so guilty la.. Haha...







Baked cheese rice.. Yummy~










Fruit tart for my dinner... Haha...












Cheese tart... It will be my supper... >.<

LOLZ!!~~

How would you spend your time in pizza hut?
Today really had lots of fun with my friend in pizza hut..
We play and laugh for almost one hour...
At first feel like abit xia suey gam...
But after we start to enjoy we don't even know what is xia suey jor..
Just keep on syok sendiri and laugh till like sapo..
Anyway, we are not laugh out loud...
We laugh like people that having spasm...Haha!

Lately we always laugh like that la..
Really suffer de lo..
Can't laugh out loud...
Because.... Most of the time we are having lecture!!
Don't know why we have so many things to laugh at...
Everyday also have different japes...
Expecially the two sopo who always become the laughing stock..
They always do those c2p things or say c2p words that really make me laugh my head off...
Not only them actually..
Lately someone start to do sha shi also liao..
Will become a so lou very soon..
Maybe is affected by the two sopo...

Today afternoon i finish my meal in a super super suffer condition..
A very delicious chicken rice...
They all make me just can't stop laughing even until my tears are dropping in a uncontrollable way...
Really really can't bear with it...
Expecially when they mention the word spasm..
I just keep on spasm and spasm with my tears dropping...
Walau eh... Make me keep on cough after that...

Anyway, very long time didn't laugh in that way jor...
Very miss the moments in secondary school...
We always burst into a spasm of laughter in a sudden...
Really laugh out loud like gila...
Realy very very miss that time la...

Ok, come back to the story in pizza hut...
Haha! Here are some of the pictures we took... ^^






Sorry for those who like pizza very much, because i make it seems like abit disgusting... Haha!













Wakakaka~~ Cute boh? >.<














This so funny la...











This very funny too...












Does it looks like a boat? Haha...











Yeah!!~~ Happy face... >.<













Keke...











Sapo with her masterpiece.. Lol~~














Aiyak! Kena tembak jor... >.<










Aiyer~ Mau tembak balik geh... Dim zhi she use double shoots... >.<













See her sapo expression... Wakakaka!!~~









Was trying to staring at each other with serious face... But... Really very funny la...

Wakakaka... >.<

哈哈！
刚去做了一件皮痒很久了的事...
就是...... 配隐形眼镜！
哇咔咔咔！！
刚戴上去的那一刻，觉得好好玩噢！
觉得很有趣，很神奇...
可是又觉得有点geli...
还不习惯吧！
第一次用指尖碰触我的眼球...
而且也很麻烦一下咯...
因为要很小心照顾...
最要紧的是不能留指甲嘞...
这对我来说是一个很大的问题...
Haiz......
就这样花了接近两百块...
接下来的日子，就要委屈我的胃了...
哈哈。。
最近真的花了很多钱...
钱钱钱~~
我要钱！！！！！

是缘分吗？

其实，这是发生在昨天的事...
原本想贴出来，可是好懒惰打...
哈哈... >.<
昨天回家时，从下巴士开始...
就刚好留意到跟一个女生都在走着同一条路线...
刚开始也没觉得没什么...
后来我们去了同一家杂货店买东西...
就在楼下而以...
刚好都是买面包噢！哈...
然后就一起进了电梯...
咦？原来大家都是住第十楼哦...
然后就开始聊了起来...
原来原来...
她就住我家隔壁而已...
哈哈！大家都有点惊喜的感觉...
她家住的全部都是基督徒...
常会有聚会，都会听到好好听的歌哦...
这件事让我觉得有点好笑，有点新奇...
还是头一遭发生这种事耶！
感觉有点扯酱...
就好像看电视常会看到的情节...
就是两个人偶然碰到，
然后就一直走同样的路线...
到家时才发现原来对方就住在隔壁或是附近...
然后就会很惊喜地说：“原来你就住在这啊？”
哈哈！我说的是真的哦...
不是编故事哦！嘻嘻...
原来，
这就是人与人之间微妙的缘分...
那种感觉，真好...

Sigh...................

Arhh!!~~
Damn bad mood now...
Frust again...
Why leh...
I don't understand why i get frustrated so easily....
Feel pressure, anxious, hopeless, unsecure...
What can i do??
OMG!!
I feel like going to die ady....
Sigh............

生命中
不断地有人离开或进入
于是，看见的，看不见了
记住的，遗忘了。。

生命中
不断地有得到和失落
于是，看不见的，看见了
遗忘的，记住了。。

然而
看不见的，
是不是就等于不存在
记住的，
是不是永远不会消失。。

刚出去吃东西。。
付钱时，老板娘好心的提醒我。。
钱包要小心看好，最近很多人都被抢钱包。。
这件事让我有了种感想。。
其实，在现今的生活中。。
尤其是现在的社会。。
负面的事物越来越多了。。
然而偶尔遇到这种会关心别人的人时，
就会让人觉得会心一笑。。
至少对我而言是。。
有时即使是一件小事，
也会让我有些感想。。
原来社会还有这种好人。。
让我觉得世界也还蛮好的嘛。。
也很庆幸让我遇到这种人。。
很庆幸让我看到美好的一面。。
很庆幸没让我看到负面的东西。。
每次遇到这种事时，
我会在心里告诉自己。。
我也要这样对别人。。
哈哈!
People should be considerate to others... ^^

距离...

我和你的距离,是有多远呢？
今天,我看见了你...
我们的距离,只有一条马路...
我坐在巴士上看着你...
你坐在亭子下看着你女友...
我凝视着你,直到巴士开走了...
你,依然没看见我...
心中忽然有种莫明的感觉...
好像是一种失落感...
有点酸酸的感觉...
也不知道,为什么会有这种感觉...
以前...
不管我在人群里的哪个角落,
你总是可以很快的找到我...
今天...
我就在你的前面,一条马路的距离...
你的眼里不再有我的影子了...
曾经是那么的熟悉,
如今,再靠近的距离你也看不到我...
这就是所谓的,熟悉的陌生人吗?
不管怎样,
只要你开心就好...

Haiz...
Feel very frustrated again arh!!~~
Really hate this kind of feeling la...
Damn it!!
What can i do??
Feel so hopeless right now...
Sobsob...
What's wrong with me leh....
Why why why?????
I keep asking myself...
But i can't get the answer....
Im wonder when only i can solve this problem...
Haiz...
Frust! Frust!! Frust!!!!